This was a truly
riveting episode for me.
Doug sold me on his experiences, and that judgement was cemented recently after listening to Don Ecker's interview of
Travis Walton over in
The Best of Dark Matters Radio. When I hold Walton's delivery up next to Doug's, there's no comparison: I have
no trust at all in Walton, but
the opposite is true of Doug.
Thanks for the great show, Gene and Dave! I hope Doug knows there are many people who believe him and who want to support him in carrying around this burden.
Wow.. been quite a few years. It has been hard dealing with the PTSD from my experiences..
Had so many confessions from brothers whom kept quiet for 50 years... Hell, my brother, whom shared the two encounters, lost it soon after listening to the podcast... He was hospitalized after losing 4 or 5 nights sleep... I think he started having flashbacks and it was too much for him to finally face these mind bending experiences after so many years..
He is Ok... I have to admit -having him break down crying for forgiveness for not being there for me etc...was disturbingly satisfying..
My mom died, but she had already talked to Budd many years ago, as if that makes one iota of difference to any of this.
I have not been able to listen to that podcast.. Tried 3 or 4 years ago while relaxing on a tropical vacation, but shook like a little baby.. Am now sitting here in tropical SE Asia... finished some legal paper work on my retirement property earlier -and as usual -at the end of the day started surfing the net and returned to the paracast and read the comments on the show I did with Budd...
Thank you very very much to all of you whom understood my fear and emotional state.. Some of you unfortunately really understand... Ha, I had quit smoking for 2 years up until 30 minutes before that show...and must have chain smoked half a pack...
I finally had to deal with the PTSD on my own terms as it was killing me... SHOCK... I am very conservative, but ran across medical studies regarding very successful PDST treatments for veterans and the terminally, using magic mushrooms.. and viola...after a rather difficult search for this once illegal item- which grows every where around here.. I tried this treatment a few times and it worked.. For the first time in my lifetime I am free of the underlying anxiety and stress. I can look up into the sky without fear..
My brother has decided to retire as his wife is going thru chemo for cancer and he really does not need to work any more and is selling his business and its property... His business involved close consulting for financial companies and other businesses, whom would be shocked and lose trust in his judgement if he ever came forward...He doesn't care any more after the business is sold and has promised to come forward if asked. I am pretty sure his wife of almost 40 years is/has finally faced something more scary than our encounter in the desert with her cancer surgeries and chemo, so even she would be ready to talk....
BUT WHY? To convince one or two more fans of this field... or give the smart asses another chance to show how smart they are by picking out a pause or hiccup from one of them to pretend it is proof of their lies or brain damage!!
This stuff is shockly real, they walk amongst us (yea, I and others like me have met them in broad daylight) but the majority of real abductees keep quiet over fear of ridicule...and hell the nuts rule the airwaves.... (The Paracast crew is excluded from that statement.)
To you whom understand, share this unreality...I thank you for your kind words... and higjly recomend the above ancient herbal medicine that has been used by humans since the stone age... It changed my life.. I thank Gene, as I got this crazy idea listening to a paracast show...
I will check in once in a while to share with like minded people,...
I owe it to Budd- as that is why he spent so much time to talk me into that show in the first place.... in order to help others like myself, whom suffer alone and in silence.