PaulsAcademy said:
What exactly is everyone's problem here? It couldn't be that I touched a nerve by exposing the evil that's within ALL of us, could it...?
You did compliment the show but also pointed out your podcast so I think it's fair to expect some of us to actually listen to it and comment on it.
I guess you just can't hear this but no, that's not the problem. The problem is that you want to examine evil on the day to day level that these larger than life figures (Hitler, Manson, bin Laden) represent/become the whipping boys for. They are kept alive in the culture so that we never have to examine the common evil that we do. I get it.
The problem is, you're using this woman who stopped being friends with you and never told you why as an example of not just common everyday evil, but of how that's equal to or greater a tragedy than concentration camps, 9/11 attacks, or the Manson murders. That you think these are in the same ball park is astounding. That you can go on for hours about it is confounding. Methinks you're mistaking ruminating and obsessing for loving, caring, and passion.
I don't know your friends you say agree with you but ask them if your pain is greater than a Jew's in Auschowitz. If they're like, "Yeah, that makes sense," trade them in for new friends.
One would think that for 3 programs worth of comparisons you would have said at least one other evil thing this woman has done besides not talking to you. Maybe she discovered one of your diaries about her and fled the scene. Or maybe she realized by talking to you that the smart friendly guy is a bit...off. And obsessive. And really into her. Women pick up on these things.
You say she has an asshole brother. Why is he an asshole? You never say. It's up to the listener to fill in that blank with the obvious probable answer: He told you, "Stay away from my sister, man!"
The fact is, she's not doing anything to you. You're allowing yourself to be so affected by her cutting off contact. That is on you. These are your feelings. Own them.
It's not hard to see where your line of ill-logic
COULD go: This woman is evil. I need justice. There are laws against getting proper justice. Those laws don't make sense. This feeling she created in me is just as bad as having been raped (you do say something similar to all of this.) So what comes next, you think? Politicians are evil. Their laws are faulty. This woman is evil. Evil needs to be stamped out. All she needed to do was talk to you to stamp it out but she didn't do that, did she? So now it's up to you. .... If I hear a three-parter on how sometimes you have to do things for the greater good despite society's laws, I'm going to worry.
Do a favor for a brotha - just pay one visit to a psychologist. Spend one hour of your time. Explain all of what you feel. If I'm wrong, I'm wrong. No harm no foul. If you need another appointment after the first, you'll find that out. But why not give that a shot? Most sane people have gone through some form of counseling in their lives, so please don't take this as a slight.
In any event this is the last I'll chime in. I know ya didn't ask for advice or anything, but do a search of any of my threads/comments on here and you'll see that I've never spoken to anyone like this. It's not something I do. This is the extent of the red flags in your show.