I get the impression from you that one just needs to have the experience of no-self once, and then this foreign energy comes in
The jury is still out on how foreign this energy is. It may be something that lies dormant in you until activated. Or something else. But basically--yes that's right.
What do you think is different about yourself, now that you've had this I Am experience?
I'm sure there are different responses from different people based on needs but for me....
1.) I now have this "other" energy just sorta coexisting in me, waiting for me to shut up so it can activate and do what it's gonna do. Usually, this has to do with yoga, tai chi, chakra & psychic awakenings, as vomitously cheesy as that sounds.
2.) I think I'm far more balanced than ever. My brain chemistry was once wired for depression and suicide and although I'm prone to the occasional impulse, that stuff takes a back seat. I smile more at nothing and sometimes this is just what physically happens when the energy rises in the front -- but a byproduct of this is being slightly happier more. I'm also about as laid back as one can be (except in online forums where I'm defensive and long-winded.)
3.) I understand all of the religious/mystical "big concepts," where they come from, which are universal truths, and which are local truths. This is stuff I cared nothing at all about but it's a kind of intelligence that comes with the territory. Where Biedny & Ritzmann are useful in telling you why guys like Greer & Meier are frauds on the science, I can tell you why they're frauds on the psycho-spirituality. (Of course you'd still have to take my word for that unless there was some sort of Yoda-riffic peer review I could pass so they're far more useful than I am at closing the deal. But if we were a team, I'm saying I could sniff 'em out in a conversation or by reading their books and then Dave & Jeff could take aim and fire.)
That's it. Three changes. Big whoop.
Do you think that you have become free of the ego?
Nope.
If not, then what do you consider the value of this strange energy phenomenon?
42.
Kidding.
I think the value is multifaceted and partial. There's the regular energy I live with everyday, which balances energy centers in the body, awakens psychic components, and dances a fat guy around his house. This seems to be about fixing the things I've broken in this body. Purely for health reasons it's a good thing to have around--but if science were to discover it, who knows what other secrets it might reveal?
And then the other ENERGY!!! that I felt 3 times, the last being the precursor to the I AM experience. That experience was worth everything because it was, in fact, everything. How do you judge the value of experiencing the formation of the universe and why it was formed where others have to guess and live dogmatic lies?
And now that I write this I'm sad by my choice in the face of that experience. As I said on my show, I fled the experience because I thought I was physically dying. I was scared. When out of it, I chose to remain an egomaniac long enough to write about it and try to get it published and then I'd let this thing takeover. Ultimately, I don't want to end up a wide-eyed creepy guru type and I was afraid that might happen, so I chose to remain as I am for a bit longer.
So here's the sadness...
What if my response was a mistake? What if the ENERGY!!! is something that I would learn to turn on and off just like the "normal" energy? What if that's the gateway between time and the now and I missed my opportunity to be someone who can travel or exist nonlocally like that because I misinterpreted what was happening?
Thanks, Brandon.
If I get the opportunity again I think I'll give in and see what's next. I might not get another shot, though--who knows? It's been years.
But okay, back to some sort of point: I think it's important because at the very least it's real, it's a part of us, and we can't even detect this stuff with instruments yet. There's a subtle biology waiting to be discovered. I think that's important on the materialist level alone.
And as far as it relates to aliens or "aliens" ... It tells me that we really don't fully understand what a human is and so we need to figure that out before attempting to understand these beings. I wonder if all the paranormal stuff wouldn't fall into place if we were wholly ourselves. The sciences need to grow into this, not try to cram it into their discoveries.
