Nancy Birnes is a nice person, and I won't say anything that detracts from her as she has been very decent and kind to me.
The issue here Jeremy, is that in all honesty, I don't believe anything anyone says anymore when it comes to ANY and ALL of the UFO stuff.
Why?
Because OH SO MANY PEOPLE, have been, or are lying about what they experienced in order to profit.
I've experienced things that I cannot explain, and had some startling revelations about my own faulty memory this year, and these are things that I carried for 30 years and more, all came to a grinding halt after watching a DVD of land of the lost.
With that said, everyone has something wrong with them, and in your case, you think you're an abductee. If I were to wake up one day, go to a doctor, find an anomalous piece of material in my body, I might have second thoughts, and maybe even start to believe that some of this is possible, but when it comes right down to it, people are fallible, and their minds can play horrible tricks on them.
Seeing as how you see finding out that you're full of crap is such a positive, then maybe you ought to go talk to your local police chief, or sherriff, and they will happily give you a lie detector test, and if you tell them what it's for, most likely they'd do it for free.